its time, for a change.

not only for the future, but also back at the past.

im going to get everything back

this zombie person here is going to disappear after today.

i hope. =)

once again my goals, ambitions, and targets.

i need to bring them back in focus once again.

=)

i wanted to create a new blog.
like since forever, so today, i finally made up my mind and click on "create new blog".
but halfway through, i stop and click back.
omgggggggg
=/.

its alot like life and making decisions
i want people to understand me like what kind of person am i,
what i like or dont like.
but im not giving them a chance to.
this is so not me. what happen to the fion that is ever so cheerful smiling from her heart, and never afraid to show her true self.
i think layers and layers of the superfical world is caking up on my face. just like a thick makeup.
i cant even see the true me anymore.


this is also why i didnt want to make a facebook quiz.
im just afraid that people dont know the ans to my questions.
im actually scared to find out how many people actually understands me.
omg, im so P A T H E T I C -_-

A BIG THANKS TO TWINNIE AND AUNTIE YANTI FOR YTD.
=))

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS=))

ur finally 16 (semi legal?!!!) and still have a long way to go.

all the best for ur o levels this year

believe you can do it and u will. =)

(OMG, I SOUND SO TEACHER-ISH)

lol. okay. anw, hope u enjoy ur last birthday with exams!!

LOL.

DEAREST LAVONE- CRAZY GIRL here sells pretty clothes from her blogshop!!!
go take alook

@ http://veraniokiss.livejournal.com

loves!!!=))

OKAY I KNOW I KEEP POSTING AND POSTING. BUT WAITTTTTTTTTTTTT
bear with me for one more post.
cos this is very important.
LOL
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVELY DEAREST BEST FRIEND FOREVER AND EVER!!!!!!

from sec one when we dont really know each other to sec 2,3,4..... till now, 19 years old.
between these 7 yrs, we been through so much,
cg, different grps of friends, different paths of education life
but whenever i turn ard, its always you.
smiling at me retardly with that twist. =)
lols. omg. even though we got our fights, our arguements.
i know we still love each other alot.
(okay lah, before ur boyfriend starts to kill me)
im really happy for you two.
lols. after so much, so long,
u end up with the guy u supposed to be with 6 yrs ago.
FATE. =))LOL
anw, i hope u enjoy ur bday and meet up on friday!!
LOVE YOU GIRL.
thanks for being there, the past 7 yrs,
thanks for being part of it. and make it a big difference for me.
u know wad i mean,
if i were to list them down,
i wont end this post in another 1 hour.
lols! love you girl!!
=)

went back to tp today in the morning.
and, i realised how much i miss walking down that concourse.
when the whole world are friends.
the hellos and byes
smile and hugs.
its never the same anymore.
from a freshie to a senior and now a grad wannabe (laojiao)
im missing the times.
how i wish i have my sip around the school.

so innocent. so sweet. so lovely.
the pleaing look. the eyes that talk.
its begging for no more disappointment.
can you feel it.

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anw, i got this from carmen's blogshop=)
helped her model for her clothes that day.
so RANDOM. lols.
but its fun, posing around the sch=)
lols. go visit the site!!
she got nice clothes. =)
must trust the designer! LOL.
OH AND partner's blogshop too. !
http://hime-shop.blogspot.com




carmen!!!

i think i look like a kid=(

shit. but nvm.

young is always good.=)

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I WANTED TO GO FOR ANAN;S CLASS TODAY BUT ITS FREAKING FULL!!!

so went for freddy's one in the end

i enjoyed myself dancing and controling.

i want to learn street jazz from freddy!!

but still, i want to go for an's hiphop!

arghh next week must earlier.

=S

NIGHTS PEOPLE!!

* its super retarded and FUNN=)

we should do this again!

anw, i thought of extending my hair AGAIN!

oh gosh. convince me not too=X

HAHAHAHHA

see the world.

i want to travel to japan, taiwan, hk, korea, european countries and america.
i want to go backpacking. make more friends, learn about the different culturals and take beautiful photos that i got to keep with me for the rest of my life.
singapore is too much of a comfort zone.
if i got the chance to, i want to explore.
i want to see the world in different perspective, different views.
like wad yanti has said,
even when im old, i still want to travel, be it with friends or alone.
HAHAH. im slightly different
i want to travel with my spouse. my husband my soulmate=)
LOL.


omg, im getting way too emotional here.
its the mood swings. arghhs, i think the long await once a month visit has come knocking on my door now. rahhhh. !!!!

KO night was dope=)
alot of good dancers all over from singapore. and even malaysia.!
the courage of dancing infront of so many people,
freestyling to the music.
dopeshit.
=)

congrats to all who made it to top 8.
and i stil think the 0nes tht didnt make it did a great job too.
jiayou people!! dun give up dancing=)
hiphop competition this yr was tough!
it'll be even tougher next year!!
so if i want to join next yr i got to train damn hard for it.
one year. is all that i got.
=)
partner! we try together kays?!
im scared too!! =X

** from amelia's blog. =)

sweet.

back at work.

after rotting at home with nth to do for one whole day,

im back at work again!

LOL. cough was much better when i undergo the medication.=)

haha, okay.

i dun really know what to say anymore.

shall blog again if im bored later! =)

BYEE.

ps: the new threadmill is arriving tonight!! LOL

if you are a balloon,

i'll never fill u up with helium gas.

LOLS.

watch friday 13th with martin, lt, lav, kevin, and jonas

stupid scary show.

JASOONNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!

LOL!!

anw, went over to tamp to meet up with besties.

laughter, joys, all add up to them .

lols=) thanks loves for the company when i see the docs!

we got to meet up every week!

MISSES=x

OKAY got to rest now.

otf with tweenie!

didnt talk to her for super long already can?!!

miss you lah=))

LOVES!

OKAY BYEE PEOPLE=)

Dear SIP,

i hope you'll be less boring. From now on, i'll try to think positively whenever we are together.
we got to learn how to co exist because we need to spend 4 months together, to be exact, 90 days. LOL.

SO LETS COOPERATE AND NOT CAUSE ANY TROUBLE FOR EACH OTHER OKAY?!
=)

cheers`

i wanted to post a post ytd after i came back from mg.
i wanted to log on to msn and chat with everybody.
but i just fell on my bed and SLEEP-_-
im tired. and cant wait to get into my lala land.
LOL. however, ytd's dream was a shocking one for me.
=X


anw, back to ytd.
brought bro to his music lesson at peni and met up with suria there
got a long talk with her.

and KC, u got to stay strong=)
i know there is alot of stuffs going on and wad makes it worst is almost all of us are currently not in school. but do take much care.
if you want we can still meet up for sessions, or just chilling.
rmb our lesson date!! HAHAHHAHAH.=)
JIAYOUUUUUUUU=)

brought my bro back to simei so that he can bus home and cabbed to smu to meet up with the rest.=)
went over to mg and,
YAH, IM GLAD THAT I GO.
because i learnt alot there.
like the grooving methods, the feel, and why people can dance so freely.
the love they have for dance is like WOWWWWW
lol. i like the fact that the people there dance because they want to express and not impress.
i think everyone did a good job=)
the next stop is KO.
jiayou people=)


went over to yoshi for dinner
and bus home with kevin, liting, and jonas.
i realised that all of us are trapped in our own problems, burdens, unable to find a way to breakaway from them
only if we can all like breakfree away from that stupid web entanglement.
if only we could live like a small child without worries for a day.
jiayou all my friends.
i believe we all can do it.
throw away the unimportant.
the treasure what we have=)


PS: okay this is abit random but im sorry if i did or say sth stupid ytd because my mood ytd was like super unpredictedable (haha. like my blog). alot of things are going through my mind and its my fault that i cannot handle them well enough inside
so some of them actually "flow" out and ya.
so if i did show attitude or anything
SORRY!!
=S
u all know i still love u all alot=)
LOL.


PS2: shall update about the human wheel barrow again. =)

its the imprefections that prefect the night.=)

New loves :
pink and sliver = super cool ! hahahah
kitkat is the new kinderjoy for me=)
SIP= a way to pass your time.
Lunchbreak= a treat for the eye :P
dance session= find ways to break through
dinner at home= bond with family
rinku's outing= bond with empire
meet up with friends= catch up because we miss each other


LOL. i think life like this will be PREFECT
if we got 48 hours per day.
=)
dope shit.
anw, i want to learn how to do a box split! ( its call a box split, right?!)
LOL.
okay, got to go finish up my stuffs at work now.
BYEE=)

pS: IM GOING BACK TO TP LATER!! ayyyes=)

i hate my cough.
everytime when im coughing, it feels like vomiting but no actual stuffs come out lah
hahah.
but still, its freaking irritating
esp when im dancing or talking to people
arghhh
=X

IM BLOGGING FROM MY SIP WORK PLACE=)