for the 1st time.

i think i look ugly. =((

i dont really know whats wrong with me but i had been feeling super down these few days.

its an on-off thing and i hate it when i have super low self esteem. i hate it even more when i realised tht everything around me is crushing dwn and i can do nth to solve it. 

everything is failing. my grades, my attendance, my friendships, my dance, my family. my everything. and i hate it. hate it=((

life is nothing. 

its stupid but i realized it when suddenly I'm not afraid of walking alone in the dark. 

im not afraid of losing my life. 

im not afraid of anything

just becos im overwhelmed by my own emotions. 

so much so that i cant be bothered with the secondary elements. arghhs. 

i see everything im feeling now as PMS-ing. 

and i certainly hope everything will be fine soon. 

oh please.. 

and yahs, im trying.

trying to break through and get back to the happy and cheerful me. 

gimme time. and please let me in when i knock on ur heart. =S

i need all the care and concerns =(

oh goddd...

i hate this growing up process. 

it sucks. 

=X